inpiration? no... dissapointment? yes...

Sorry about the last post. Was a little depressed that night. Just for the record i didnt try. I was VERY close. but I didnt. I was just depressed. seriously. I think I might be pregnant...

Ive missed a period... ive also had sex in the last month... Bad stomache cramps... being sick... feeling dizzy... PUTTING ON WEIGHT...

Is it just me whos thinking 'shit, im PREGNANT, at the age of 15?' FML.

I do have a plan though. I'm going to the doctors after work tommorow. Im gunna ask for a implant,
then they will ask me when my last perios was, and ill say 'about 7 weeks ago' and theyll be like 'is there any chance your pregnant?' and ill say 'Yeh, I spose I could be.' I have to go to the hospital tommorow anyways, just like any other day. For my STUPID PHYCIATRIST!
then go back to work.

K, so you know I lost 7.5lbs in one week, then gained the half.
I was alright about that.
I stayed the same last week.
But this week
I put on 2LBS :'(

I dont know what im doing wrong. I just want to drown in source
:'(
or drown anyways... anything will do...

I was so drunk the other night, so drunk that I can't even remember what night.
I fell down the stairs and damamged the tendon in my thigh on my right leg, so I cant even run or anything this week.

It fucking hurts! and it is only the second time I have been in hospital for 2-3 days for something other than self harm!

I missed the first 3 days of my work experience, I only have to do 5. :) They know I was in hospital, so its alright. They cant really have someone on crutches in a hair dressing salon trying to sweep up. LOL. I cant even make myself a cup of tea without spilling it everywhere, im useless.:(

K, end of rant.

This weeks food list:

BAD foods:

Dairy products [except lacto-free milk]
Yeast [Bread, Marmite, Blah blah blah]
SUGAR [EVERYTHING!]
ALCOHOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GOOD foods:

Special K+
Lacto-free milk
Cucumber
Celery
Lettuce
Vegetables
Sugar free source


= approx 200 calories per day :)

ooooooooooooo..... Interesting fact:

You burn more calories than you intake when you eat cucumber, celery and lettuce :) SCORE! :D


K, Rant over.
Love from you completely hopeless and lost
Star xx