Thankyou. :)

I told my girlfriend, She went a bit mad and was really upset and still is I think.

Thankyou AmaDraque for you lovely comment, and welcome to my blog :)

In answer to your question about the medication..

Honestly? I'd love to think that it is, but I've been on medication for about 3-4 years,

I think the reason I havn't cut for 3 months is because I havn't been to school for the last 3 months, I can almost guarentee that I will start again when I go back in september. If I go back.

I see my therapist 3 times a week now instead of 7, But I personally don't think I have a very strong bond with her.

I don't tell her everything because I know that if I tell her the truth I will be there for years, and I just want to get out of there, People poking their noses aroun my life!. I hate it, and don't find it helpful.

This blog helps me more because I know that people are reading it have either experienced it themselves or know sort of what im going through. My therapist doesn't have a clue in my opinion.

I don't care how many qualifications she has..

Or how much experience she has..

People who are close to me can help me more, I wish so much that my parents would do more than just call an ambulance and let them get on with it.

But thats just my opinion. :) I hope that you understand,,


Welcome to my blog and hav a fun time reading it... lol,, my depressing shit haha.


Anyways...

This weeks weigh in shows that I have lost 1lb, In 3 weeks. Thats shit and im not vey happy about it, I want to lose more. I've been really as good as I hav ever been before.. and it doesn't pay off.


It was my dads 50th birthday party last night, everyone got completely wankered, including my 13 year old little sister. [I FUCKING hate her even MORE when shes drunk]


But that made me put on 3lb :'(


Im never gunna get to 9 stone... Ever, I know it. Im starting to give up on myself.

Myself is telling me to go back to cutting right now, but I don't want to :(

Im sure it will all work out.. one day,, have to go see my therapist tommorow.


Early...



Thankyou everyone for being so patient and reading this shit,, it must be seriously depressing


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