TheTearsBehindTheSmile...

I used to use this image as my display picture.
Im sure everyone feels like this once in their life time. but i feel it all the time.

This is a picture of me. Before i got fat. I wish i could rewind the clock and be like that again. But even then i felt fat.
Food made me like this. I didnt have control over the food. It forced me to eat it. Then i met my girlfriend. She was really fat, and ate a lot.

I joined in with her.

I hate going on holiday.
I always eat lots because i can't smoke to supress hunger.
It would be obvious, if i happened to be doing a fast [which i was] then they would see me not eating.

Parents suck,
No one needs them.
My parents shouldnt exist.
My mum is an alcoholic.
My dad is just annoying, he always sides with my mum.
My sister, lets not even start.

I need to be thin.
I will be thin.

No one can stop me.
Ana is there for me.

"I am your butter and your bread. The voice that's in your head. I'll take you in and fill you up with a lack of being fed" -Ana

Much love ~Star xx