Did you miss me?

I'm back, Obviously none of you did miss me. I'm not that interesting...
although it has been 6 months, it almost feels like its been years. Years of failer, and dissapointment.
Maybe they were only so long becus of the long nights, being unable to sleep. THe long nights of nothing but blood and heart ache. The long nights, waiting for people to text me, just to see if they care...
But amongst all that, there seems to be light. A hope. A hope that is worth me staying in this world,, just a little longer.
But then, something like this happens. I am dragged straight back into my hell, because of some apsolute ass-hole. I was picking myself up, I didnt need the help of this blog to keep me going and inspired. But now that I am not just looking after myself... but a tiny little baby aswell, I dont know what to do with myself.
Im going to get fatter, moddier, and then when it's born, i'll be saggy, and be weighed down by a massive pair of boobs.

Well, everything was going well. I didnt cut, at all from october until about 3 weeks ago when I found out. no body knows. Just my blog page now.
NOT even my girlfriend knows. She would think I had been cheating.

Maybe, no, Its probably just what I deserve. Karma, some might call it.

Yours,
Star xx