lonely... where has she fucked off too now?

Ok, realising that nobody reads my blog has made me realise that I can put whatever the fuck I like on here!

I am pissed off ny head on vodka. Despite the fact I don't drink I've had half a pint of vodka.

I am just gunna lie here all day like I have done since monday. I'm gunna stay drunk forever and get fat.

I'm destined to gett fatter anyway.

No matter how hard I try, how well I do.

I NEVER LOSE WEIGHT!

I'm doing a fast tommorow, just a simple 24 hour one, starting at 12 tnite.

I dnt no y I'm bothering. I'm gunna fail anywaym
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I also have to go swimming...

My worst fear in the world...

Everything on show, all my fat roles, all my scars and fresh cuts, but I don't have a choice in the matter.

My mum has turned back into her noramal alcoholic self, despite all the rehab.

I hate my life.
I just want to die, but I want to die skinny.
Not the FAT cow that I am...

Star xx